I'm a surivior "with a heart like mine

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That's me on the right with icing on my fingers. This was me recovering from suregry 




Feeling sad after surgery not feeling well but I was Glad I was out of my hospital room ! To try and play 




There I am cuddling with my faveorite blykie I called it gonie blankie" lol

my faveorite nurse=)













my heart surgery doctor! i wonder if i can contact him some how????!!!!!













Got to go home finally!!! 

I told my mom the story how I saw Jesus but he went away !

I Love this photo of us!  Mom & Me



Grandmas hear yay!!!!!









I was so happy that grandma came to visit us!!:) 

              My friends I had many surgeries through my life but each one Jesus had seen me through kept his promises that he does has a hope and a future!!!!! Plans for me not just for me but to all who love Jesus with there while hearts he has plans to prosper u if u only let Jesus be Lord in your heart !

I just wanted to share why birthdays meens to me!:) today mom took me to Olive Garden for my bday lunch ! It was so good our fave place! 

Easter with my side of the family! 2013

       

cousin love !i love those moments!

my fiance brought the ex box and games over showed the family how to bowl on ex box this is carol my cousins mother in law long time friend of ours!!!!

she got her first strike!!

 

Later that night we got on our dancing shoes!!!

Easter with Fiance' side of the family 2013

Easter was great I was getting really exiting about meeting the rest of Robs family and hoping that mom can meet them as well too!!!
Barkers men are trying to behave it was extremly hard !! for them!



 

 My new Sister in law Shawn Nephew Andrew!!

Popsi is having fun in this photo!!!! on the left with the football shirt on!"

Pops Samantha soon to be my niece! and her dad Ray"

This pic most of the girls were so tired not in the mood for a group photo but they had a full busy day!!!!!

Smack!!!!

I sorry I still wuv u !

Mom Elaine getting the goodies read for the kids to open !

His ways His time is not our Time!!!

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.  Isaiah 55:8, 9

Encouraging word 

My goal is to get into a study or book of bible and learn what God wants me to learn if u do the same he will bless your socks right off!! Just wait an c

This feels great!!!!

So this is what a Real Relationship Feels like!!!!

Ever since the day we reunited & Purposed on Thanks Giving he and i have been inseparable like 2 peas in a pod.  Someone once told me that if its true love how u know its real is when they don't want to leave your side and miss another day with out you and they make it there best to make it work not that we had to make ours work it just fell naturally like domino's on a track.   Rob has a huge family mine is somewhat huge growing in time with our cousins getting married and moving on having children.  

It's so nice to be able to my self and to have someone that God provided  that i don't have to feel stressed and worried and totally be unequal with.  I think that being unequal is a small sign of mentally abuse because from knowing my ex and how was was unequal was a big thing for me, so it was and did got really really worse off that's how it started with my ex.

So I am just amazed when i surrendered all my worries and concerns from my ex to the God that he had restored my life with bringing me my new best friend to marry to grow old with and to have lots of fun /laughter/adventures of course there will be pain sorrow but God says in Genesis's I will make a suitable helper he didn't say that to Adam I will make you a perfect God said Suitable  helper for you.  

So I have learned and grown so much by leaving an emotional mentally abusive man my ex I'm so grateful it wasn't physical but he had temper as well. With other things & still scared me So it took me courage to leave Gods courage helped me, and i was so troubled and scared i didn't know were to turn to so i didn't want to bore my friends of my usual troubles and i was covering it up making my husband at the time look good when he wasn't he was always helpful for everyone ells and loved everyone ells but not i at the time, so i had to be brave and tell my paster in a meeting of everything that's going on and what i c.  So Paster had called him in on a meeting with the Deccan's and the Mistress and that Mistress was someone from my church who no longer goes there and she only went had her kids in kids classes, and she was in ours & her husband never came because was always working and out of town.  

2 my surprise!!!!

One Day last month I came home like any other day to check my fb  messages and to my surprise a customer i new that wanted me 2 make her three small t shirt quilts from her mothers shirts, asked me on my page if i wanted a piano!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

I asked her if she wanted anything in return she said no her mother doesn't play & no one does and she wants some one who will love it and play! & yes my friends my fiance' mom teaches me and i can play and learning more <3 
I love music.  SO  I HAD  few weeks to plan all this out and to have helpers and a truck and have everyone in on the same plan knowing I had no idea how heavy this piano was and they were all asking me!!! So I was getting quite nervous. 
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    I prayed about it as often as i thought about it and God gave me the men i should ask for to help.   so i did and to my surprise they hesitated and said yes i was forever so grateful, not knowing really how far my friend lived that was the stress part i believe on my helpers & I.

so Bob my Sunday school teacher drove there to the owners house Bill with the truck met me at 7-11 close his fabric quilts hop they own. & I was waiting for the other two guys!!!!! I was quite stressed I called them too see if there on there way one said we have to get lunch at Wendy's well that was 1:00 they finally arrived at 1:45 

I was so nervous I really felt like I needed to be there at right at the ladies home when Bil & Bob arrived there first.  so we ended up arriving there 30 min late after the fact we should be meeting Bill /Bob at the same time. i was so frustrated at the other two taking there time coming to get me, grrrrrrrrr. so 
on top of that the traffic was bad lol.  just what we needed,

so the two guy friends i rode with we had a pleasant drive talk but it was so tense for me allot of stop and go.  so i text the owner of the piano she said the two men were already hear and loaded it up already and headed back to the quilt shop to wait for me & i finally got hold of them said were on our way and i was trying to remember the correct address and accidentally told them the wrong one !!! thank goodness they didn't start driving off that way i could tell they were worn out too and frustrated.  
so to my point of rambling on about this story

is that God was teaching me to be still and wait, omy that is so hard for me to do when u are dealing with others schedules when there helping u out.  i was screaming inside heart racing inside.  i told my guy friends wow i really thought they needed two more to help they managed maybe they really did i thought to my self.  but God was telling me in my heart "Carrie I gave u this piano i will prepare the way make this all work out fine."
yes I said God gave me this gift because he gave it to me through a friend that I have done very well in her t shirt quilts for her in the past.
Im not saying God blesses us that easily or quickly its all in his perfect time.  In lots of ways i was really relaxed to hear that Bill & Bob got the piano on to the truck and were already driving back.
           You may think were was Rob in all this!!!! 
Rob did come home into town and felt fine until all day Sun he even missed church and slept the day until his fever broke! and praise God it did i prayed and prayed that he wouldn't feel that bad driving 710 miles away with that fever and chills.  poor guy he really wanted to help the piano move i couldn't bear to wake him up and rush him out the door for that.

The piano is now safely moved in my mother in laws piano studio at a church. it looks so good i can't wait to practice on that piano !

Thank u men each of u God put your names on my heart to ask u I was scared of planning this but tank u for being there for me!!!!! even if it went into most of the football game on tv i'm sorry guys but thank u from the bottom of my heart so great full!!!!!!!!





 they fit side by side!!! perfectly!

Meeting the family!

                                             Meeting the Family made me so nervous!


                           I have known half of them when we were way back 1999! Tabitha His mom & Dad remembered me and gave me a warm welcome!  it was so sweet his dad gave me a hug and a kiss on the for head and said "I remember this girl.!!"
The Man on the Right is Robs brother could u tell by the way they act!!? Richard is the oldest brother. then there is Rob and Ray the identicle twins, and sister Tabitha, call her Tabi for short." 

Tada! hear is Tabi she is the sweetest lady i  ever known, she has been through so much has three children of her own grown up and on there own except the youngest two which is a sensitive topic, 

her walk with God has been shining through her and she is a hospitality person as well. Tabi also works as the night shift as a nurse!"

                                                                                    

Keep Going don't quit!