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he is silent during the test"
February 8, 2012 at 11:20pm
God Is working in the scenes/ when u don't hear from God he is silent during the test"
February 8, 2012 at 11:20pm
2/8/12
hi friends please read my story and take heart not too look at my many misspelled words lol. and many run on sentence's just read the words carefully.
Hi friends its been a whole year since
my divorce and the new chapter of
being single on my own trying to be on
my own feet was quiet the challenge.
There were lots of good highlights
during that year of 2011 . i had the
dream of my apartments that was so
nice. I was also trying to figure out of
who i was again. My last marriage it
was always about him and for him and it
was just not the way God intended how
marriage should be I was always in fear
friends fear does not Come From God
He has now part of being fear, the only
fear is to fear God means to be in awe of
God who is is and what he can for and
what he can bring you through" it is the
healthy fear.
God has been my provider ever since i
needed to let go of my marriage, God is
my comfort peace deliverance Redeemer
He is my heavenly dad that has always
been there for me since the day i was
born My heavenly dad meaning God
was silent through 2012 when u listen
carefully and avoid the worlds attraction
distraction u will hear his voice He
spoke gently to my heart saying " i have
someone wonderful u need to let go and
let me, work stop trying to find this
person on your own, "
I thought omgsh if i continue to let go i
would have nothing to hold onto! well
ladies and guys family friends... that is
the biggest lie the enemy can tell u. the
adversary wants u to hold on to your
baggage and wants u to be reminded
always so when that awkward moment
comes to u and your heart beats faster
you start to have a Panic attack Pray fast
i have learned through this whole trial
god helped me through is to let go let
God, he really does care for u and wants
the best for u. That's why he opened
his arms on that cross for u, & me, he
Brings us through our troubles for us
to
build our character and character
comes
from God alone.
Last year my addiction was dating
sights. yes i was on almost every single
dating sight sometimes i would able to
pay for three at a time, or get on all the
free ones. i was getting really
obsessed with them,
i know i haven't told allot of close
friends that and some new also. i have
figured out i was in the denying stage of
what pain i was going through. i have
met a few never was serious with
anyone, sometimes yes but not really, if
that makes any sense, Most of all i was
sleeping allot throughout the day taking
two naps a day and towards the middle
of the year i was hurting my legs again, i
wanted to get another staff infection,
and in up in the hospital again knowing
full well i was there the same reason
2009 i almost died, because of hurting
my legs, infection reached to my heart.
I so i was @ the point not caring about
myself my depression really went down
fast, not caring about taking my heart
med correctly, I also have stop ed
dating sights all together completely i
feel like i am in the moving forward
stage. closer stage.
i have incredible peace i have grown aloft
who i am in Christ and who i am as what i
like and don't like. there were many times
that i had liked the things that my ex liked.
and I've learned wow i really didn't like that
at all!!! so that was allot of the highlights i
went through last year. i have learned to
ask God the desires of my heart who i want
to
be with and why i want to be with another
man not to be loved because i am loved by
God. , my friends have told me why would u
even want to be married again, after all i
had
been through, i smile and say I know it will
be for the write reasons and have God first in
all we do." I cant give up on love and Hope
just can't.
thats why i decided to be home with mom
early . with my church adult friends i put on
a poker face always saying everything was
fine, when it was not, friends what I'm
saying all this about my life if u are going
through this in anyway look towards God u
have to let go let God take control not
yourself. i was really going through major
denial friends any trial u go through u need
to humble yourself like a child, and admit
your feelings, its not a fun stage but denial
doesn't help you grow it helps u stay and rot
and u my friend have a lot of worth because
God created you & the days of your life. so
friends please u need to let go of denial and u
need to accept your feelings because God
does, he wants us to be truthful to him, and to
always grow bear fruit, fruit is gentleness,
hope, love, and so on, compassion , mercy.
letting go your denial is a way to grow
further past your pain, u must let go and
accept your feelings and what u r going
through, and the first step is with God, find a
quiet place in your home, and write out your
prayers to him and name all your feelings
and say Lord its yours take it away from me,
and provide me with good pure lovely
thoughts, and when they come around to
knock on your hearts door constantly say Lord take it away!!! because it will come
around i promise u it will haunt u in your
dreams and in the oddest times of the day.
but the key too moving forward and always
bearing fruit in your life, is release it to God,
its a constant reminder to think on thing that are not of this world. Renue your mind
ever day, that's the process that has helped
me, friends accept your feelings tell God
pray hope wait trust God is working behind
the scenes when u don't hear him or see him
feel him he is there if u are at the point when
u don't feel Gods presence in your life its because u have to accept what u r going through and let it go! friends please in your note book write down all the things that anger u and hurt u any secrets u hide, and
then say God this is yours take it away and then put it through the Shredder! in a way
that's what god does for us, he just wants us to accept our feelings, to pray wait trust
hope, I just pray that God can use what i went through to help anyone out there not to go through emotional abuse as long as i have done seven long years. so friends letting
denial go accept what your going through,
always then letting others see your hurt and
pain let others help u through it you will be
surprised that u will have allot of real friends who will love u and walk with u through the growing pains.
As soon as i have continued to let go God will
fill your heart with joy peace he is my reason
why i get up to face each day. when i wasn't looking God provided me a wonderful christian guy. he is what i have always
wanted in a person to be with every secret
prayer that i never shared with everyone he has been all those unanswered prayers,
when i wasn't looking God provided me
someone special someone who would give me
the desires of my heart.
someone we can talk and pray together,
people say i think its way too soon, but i have accepted all the things i needed to go through
to be able to let go. I now understand what
Jesus says to forgive 27+27 meaning forging
constantly when those negative memories come back to me., I am not in any rush to get
married i want to enjoy my relationship really get to know him, and to put God first.
& knowing I'm am worth so much in Gods eyes not to go through another emotional
abuse relation?marriage! i just hope and pray that God will use me to help others in
many ways, * to remember that stop and pray and realize our self worth is so important to God as we humble ourselves as a child and when our shoe laces get untied spiritually we need to get down tie them so
we don't trip and fall because friends we will because we are human and God gives us tests
during life. When He is silent God is creating the stage have peace and child like
heart without faith we wont grow, i always
say u can not force a butterfly to grow out of
its cocoon it will happen on his own just like
God heals us in his own time,
I have been a preschool teacher for 20 years
and faith like a child i have come to learn.
when a parent drops of there child and the
child has fear even though he has been there
for days, hangs on to daddy and says daddy
please don't leave me, dad says Honey I will
be hear soon to pick u up! or mommy. that
child has to have trust in his daddy knowing
that he will be OK when he faces the
unknown of his day. knowing that he has
know idea what will happened to him, that he
will be rescued so friends i think that is with
our heavenly dad, with us Trust is the key
that he will see is through it all when we feel
like our hope is gone and have nothing to
cling too.have a blessed life & remember
always
its awesome to know that God is working in
our lives even if u do or don't believe he is
there, he is working behind the scenes and
he is quiet during our test"
February 8, 2012 at 11:20pm
2/8/12
hi friends please read my story and take heart not too look at my many misspelled words lol. and many run on sentence's just read the words carefully.
Hi friends its been a whole year since
my divorce and the new chapter of
being single on my own trying to be on
my own feet was quiet the challenge.
There were lots of good highlights
during that year of 2011 . i had the
dream of my apartments that was so
nice. I was also trying to figure out of
who i was again. My last marriage it
was always about him and for him and it
was just not the way God intended how
marriage should be I was always in fear
friends fear does not Come From God
He has now part of being fear, the only
fear is to fear God means to be in awe of
God who is is and what he can for and
what he can bring you through" it is the
healthy fear.
God has been my provider ever since i
needed to let go of my marriage, God is
my comfort peace deliverance Redeemer
He is my heavenly dad that has always
been there for me since the day i was
born My heavenly dad meaning God
was silent through 2012 when u listen
carefully and avoid the worlds attraction
distraction u will hear his voice He
spoke gently to my heart saying " i have
someone wonderful u need to let go and
let me, work stop trying to find this
person on your own, "
I thought omgsh if i continue to let go i
would have nothing to hold onto! well
ladies and guys family friends... that is
the biggest lie the enemy can tell u. the
adversary wants u to hold on to your
baggage and wants u to be reminded
always so when that awkward moment
comes to u and your heart beats faster
you start to have a Panic attack Pray fast
i have learned through this whole trial
god helped me through is to let go let
God, he really does care for u and wants
the best for u. That's why he opened
his arms on that cross for u, & me, he
Brings us through our troubles for us
to
build our character and character
comes
from God alone.
Last year my addiction was dating
sights. yes i was on almost every single
dating sight sometimes i would able to
pay for three at a time, or get on all the
free ones. i was getting really
obsessed with them,
i know i haven't told allot of close
friends that and some new also. i have
figured out i was in the denying stage of
what pain i was going through. i have
met a few never was serious with
anyone, sometimes yes but not really, if
that makes any sense, Most of all i was
sleeping allot throughout the day taking
two naps a day and towards the middle
of the year i was hurting my legs again, i
wanted to get another staff infection,
and in up in the hospital again knowing
full well i was there the same reason
2009 i almost died, because of hurting
my legs, infection reached to my heart.
I so i was @ the point not caring about
myself my depression really went down
fast, not caring about taking my heart
med correctly, I also have stop ed
dating sights all together completely i
feel like i am in the moving forward
stage. closer stage.
who i am in Christ and who i am as what i
like and don't like. there were many times
that i had liked the things that my ex liked.
and I've learned wow i really didn't like that
at all!!! so that was allot of the highlights i
went through last year. i have learned to
ask God the desires of my heart who i want
to
be with and why i want to be with another
man not to be loved because i am loved by
God. , my friends have told me why would u
even want to be married again, after all i
had
been through, i smile and say I know it will
be for the write reasons and have God first in
all we do." I cant give up on love and Hope
just can't.
thats why i decided to be home with mom
early . with my church adult friends i put on
a poker face always saying everything was
fine, when it was not, friends what I'm
saying all this about my life if u are going
through this in anyway look towards God u
have to let go let God take control not
yourself. i was really going through major
denial friends any trial u go through u need
to humble yourself like a child, and admit
your feelings, its not a fun stage but denial
doesn't help you grow it helps u stay and rot
and u my friend have a lot of worth because
God created you & the days of your life. so
friends please u need to let go of denial and u
need to accept your feelings because God
does, he wants us to be truthful to him, and to
always grow bear fruit, fruit is gentleness,
hope, love, and so on, compassion , mercy.
letting go your denial is a way to grow
further past your pain, u must let go and
accept your feelings and what u r going
through, and the first step is with God, find a
quiet place in your home, and write out your
prayers to him and name all your feelings
and say Lord its yours take it away from me,
and provide me with good pure lovely
thoughts, and when they come around to
knock on your hearts door constantly say Lord take it away!!! because it will come
around i promise u it will haunt u in your
dreams and in the oddest times of the day.
but the key too moving forward and always
bearing fruit in your life, is release it to God,
its a constant reminder to think on thing that are not of this world. Renue your mind
ever day, that's the process that has helped
me, friends accept your feelings tell God
pray hope wait trust God is working behind
the scenes when u don't hear him or see him
feel him he is there if u are at the point when
u don't feel Gods presence in your life its because u have to accept what u r going through and let it go! friends please in your note book write down all the things that anger u and hurt u any secrets u hide, and
then say God this is yours take it away and then put it through the Shredder! in a way
that's what god does for us, he just wants us to accept our feelings, to pray wait trust
hope, I just pray that God can use what i went through to help anyone out there not to go through emotional abuse as long as i have done seven long years. so friends letting
denial go accept what your going through,
always then letting others see your hurt and
pain let others help u through it you will be
surprised that u will have allot of real friends who will love u and walk with u through the growing pains.
As soon as i have continued to let go God will
fill your heart with joy peace he is my reason
why i get up to face each day. when i wasn't looking God provided me a wonderful christian guy. he is what i have always
wanted in a person to be with every secret
prayer that i never shared with everyone he has been all those unanswered prayers,
when i wasn't looking God provided me
someone special someone who would give me
the desires of my heart.
someone we can talk and pray together,
people say i think its way too soon, but i have accepted all the things i needed to go through
to be able to let go. I now understand what
Jesus says to forgive 27+27 meaning forging
constantly when those negative memories come back to me., I am not in any rush to get
married i want to enjoy my relationship really get to know him, and to put God first.
& knowing I'm am worth so much in Gods eyes not to go through another emotional
abuse relation?marriage! i just hope and pray that God will use me to help others in
many ways, * to remember that stop and pray and realize our self worth is so important to God as we humble ourselves as a child and when our shoe laces get untied spiritually we need to get down tie them so
we don't trip and fall because friends we will because we are human and God gives us tests
during life. When He is silent God is creating the stage have peace and child like
heart without faith we wont grow, i always
say u can not force a butterfly to grow out of
its cocoon it will happen on his own just like
God heals us in his own time,
I have been a preschool teacher for 20 years
and faith like a child i have come to learn.
when a parent drops of there child and the
child has fear even though he has been there
for days, hangs on to daddy and says daddy
please don't leave me, dad says Honey I will
be hear soon to pick u up! or mommy. that
child has to have trust in his daddy knowing
that he will be OK when he faces the
unknown of his day. knowing that he has
know idea what will happened to him, that he
will be rescued so friends i think that is with
our heavenly dad, with us Trust is the key
that he will see is through it all when we feel
like our hope is gone and have nothing to
cling too.have a blessed life & remember
always
its awesome to know that God is working in
our lives even if u do or don't believe he is
there, he is working behind the scenes and
he is quiet during our test"
surprised that u will have allot of real friends who will love u and walk with u through the growing pains.
As soon as i have continued to let go God will
fill your heart with joy peace he is my reason
why i get up to face each day. when i wasn't looking God provided me a wonderful christian guy. he is what i have always
wanted in a person to be with every secret
prayer that i never shared with everyone he has been all those unanswered prayers,
when i wasn't looking God provided me
someone special someone who would give me
the desires of my heart.
someone we can talk and pray together,
people say i think its way too soon, but i have accepted all the things i needed to go through
to be able to let go. I now understand what
Jesus says to forgive 27+27 meaning forging
constantly when those negative memories come back to me., I am not in any rush to get
married i want to enjoy my relationship really get to know him, and to put God first.
& knowing I'm am worth so much in Gods eyes not to go through another emotional
abuse relation?marriage! i just hope and pray that God will use me to help others in
many ways, * to remember that stop and pray and realize our self worth is so important to God as we humble ourselves as a child and when our shoe laces get untied spiritually we need to get down tie them so
we don't trip and fall because friends we will because we are human and God gives us tests
during life. When He is silent God is creating the stage have peace and child like
heart without faith we wont grow, i always
say u can not force a butterfly to grow out of
its cocoon it will happen on his own just like
God heals us in his own time,
I have been a preschool teacher for 20 years
and faith like a child i have come to learn.
when a parent drops of there child and the
child has fear even though he has been there
for days, hangs on to daddy and says daddy
please don't leave me, dad says Honey I will
be hear soon to pick u up! or mommy. that
child has to have trust in his daddy knowing
that he will be OK when he faces the
unknown of his day. knowing that he has
know idea what will happened to him, that he
will be rescued so friends i think that is with
our heavenly dad, with us Trust is the key
that he will see is through it all when we feel
like our hope is gone and have nothing to
cling too.have a blessed life & remember
always
its awesome to know that God is working in
our lives even if u do or don't believe he is
there, he is working behind the scenes and
he is quiet during our test"
