The Shock of my life !

It's been a month since I had the shock of my life  Jan 22 I was sound asleep   I felt like a truck had hit me  I was sound asleep I felt my heart racing and   And I felt a sharp pain in my chest kind of like a huge jolt in my chest were my pace maker defibrillator sets in.  Later when I arrived at the er they had said I had three shocks of my defibrillator !!!;( 

So as I had experience my second one I didn't feel the first.   The first was really mild and seldom I didn't know.   

So my heart was racing it jolted me straight upright from laying down position. Thank goodness I live with my mom while my husband is out of state working North Dakota ! I'm very relived that I stay home @ moms.  

It was very scary I was terrified I called out mom yelled for her in between of my next shock I had !!! Right after I remember trying to sit up right but I had another shock fallowing after the first real shock I had .   It was extremely terrifying when it happens. When mom and I were resting with  both our doors were shut for it was during our nap times .  She came running in calling my name and saying 

"What's the matter !!" By that time I was just getting through with my third shock of my defibrillator. 

 By this time I was trying to prop my self up with my other arm trying to sit up.  I am 38 years old had my first pacemaker defibrillator shock of my life 3 of them!!!

  My mom said my eyes were huge and were my eyes were white they were red.

I got my normal eye color back within a few seconds  she said I had foam at the mouth feeling chockey chopping and trying to catch my breath .  I really felt like the wind had got knocked out of me in a huge way! I felt cold clammy and shakes my nerves were out of wack it took me long time for my nerves to calm down. 

After trying to collect my thoughts together  I said "mom I've been shocked twice later at the er it was three times we had learned."  So my mom sat near me and I said mom please hold me in scared and I sobbed and sobbed.

After I calmed down but my nerves still shaking I wanted to lay back down and mom down next to me in my single bed. I was sobbing lightly not as heavy my mom called my cardiology doctor  we didn't know what to do this is my first time I've been shocked and jolted from my defibukator !! I've had it placed in me since 2010 and until now it was the first time ever experienced that!! So terrifying I don't wish it upon every one I don't want to alarm you if u do have one it did what it was supposed to do.

I have learned that my her was in a life threatening arithmia and from the surgeries I had in my past there was lots of scar tissues in the way that is why my pacemaker defibulator shocked me 3 times it was having trouble reading what kind of arithmia I was having .  

Mom drove me to the er I got in right away and that evening with in two hours they relised what kind of arithmia I was having !! They were really good right on target and they new that scar tissue was in the way of its reading when the device shocked me 3 times instead of once .:) 

Every time I go in hospitals or surgies I am amazed how tech knowledgy is these days!!

So that night my shocks happens  about 435 and I got into my hospital room about 10 :30 Ish .   So it has been a roller coaster ride for me .  

I've had many many procedures in my early adult hood life and I was born with heart disease  and had three open heart surgery when I was very young first one 18 mo old :) 

It has always been mom and I & have been only child for as far as I can remember that's another whole story in my other post hear in my blog feel free to read about it:)

I have been very much use to hospitals and nurses and trying to be calm .  

It's not always easy thing to do. I have know and learn about my  my Heavenly Father through my health issues.  

And my walk with Christ I have learned nothing is in our control its all in His Hands . 

 That wed that week being in hospital was the hardest week ever. 

The doctors always make it seem scary which they have to show us what could happend it's very risky procedure I had because my heart is week already because of what I was born with and all the other procedures I've had this procedure they were and did do was going to be high risk one and might have to shock me if something goes wrong.  

I had lots of family and friends come take me and that was so comforting I believe with all my heart that all good things God uses to comfort those who need comfort.

I had felt Gods peace yes fear at the same time it's hard to explain but Gods peace is more stronger & powerful .

Going into surgery I sensed Gods arms holding me and these where the words that He gave me in my heart:)"

 

It has been the hardest thing ever that I went through it is amazing what God can use doctors and medications to help any of us who needs 😊

Jeremiah 32:27 “Behold, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh; is anything too difficult for Me?” (NASB)

Psalm 31:24 “Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord!” (NIV)

Exodus 15:2 “The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation. He is my God, and I will praise him, my father’s God, and I will exalt him.”

Even when we are low in the valley in our pit God still wants our love devotion towards him it's hard because that's when we our natural strength wants to pull away from him!!!!! That's when we need Him the most 😊